No impulsion

I know that very clearly,the reason causes this ending is destiny-I have no adquet courage to say love. So the fact is that others think I am no confident about myself no matter she is the girl I like or dislike.

I am no longer pure. The impulsion has gone away from me. So I confess that I am not youth anymore.


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Kid

I am a kid who want to somebody's promise. But I always break the promises at last.

Today I maybe find a girl is close to the perfect. I know it's no perfect in the world. And I absolutely need to take a long way to conquer the drawbacks of mine.

So it's the wrong time,too. I cannot fall asleep quickly.How about you?


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what am I doing?

What am I doing? I also hope to figure out. was I happy? I don't know either.
Why could I face the reality?

I have various questions just you know.
The situation cannot change if I just do ask questions by myself.

And I have another doubt is that how can I endure the feeling of lonesome.

Many x-fs told me that I'm the person that cannot stand lonely.

Yep,you are correct. I want to alter that acting too much. But I didn't change.

Today,I met a guy and I know that feeling again. I hope to persurm perfect,but the fact is that I cannot get them now.

It's the problem,Tonight I will meet a friend,I hope that he would give me a final answer.

p.s

The most perishing thing is that you have awared your shrtcomings but you cannot make up. Moreover,you also cannot watch yourself dead.

A guy told me that I'm the person who is most close to my dream. God would give me another chance to give a shot,if I were not take the second chance,I would have nothing. Come on!


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Damnable frustration

I felt extreme helpless and frustrate,so I choosed to sing at mid-night lasting three hours,the singer at concert performs nothing more than three hours.

It is the only way to relieve my stress and frustration.

I hope my goals could still come true. I know it need to try harder and harder. I would like to try again!






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Love is unique

I saw a lots of opinions about love and sex and I also concern the relationship between them,the following one maybe is the most unique idea:

You know those carnival games,and you know how some of them are really hard to win and some of them are super easy and everyone wins.

it's just that that's the difference between love and sex.Sex is the game where everyone wins a little prize,and no one goes home a loser.And love is the game that's really hard to win.But if you do,and you get to take home that life-sized stuffed rhinoceros,it feels a whole lot better than taking home that shitty little plastic key chain.

everthing is negotiable,but not love.Love is a guessing game,and that is the beauty of it.There's no guarantees,It's like diving into a pool of water without knowing if it's shallow or deep.If it's shallow,you end up hurt and paralyzed from the neck down.But if it's deep,it's a leap of faith.It's like throwing yourself out there without any guarantees and that's what life's about.



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