No impulsion

I know that very clearly,the reason causes this ending is destiny-I have no adquet courage to say love. So the fact is that others think I am no confident about myself no matter she is the girl I like or dislike.

I am no longer pure. The impulsion has gone away from me. So I confess that I am not youth anymore.


-- Post by my iPhone

Kid

I am a kid who want to somebody's promise. But I always break the promises at last.

Today I maybe find a girl is close to the perfect. I know it's no perfect in the world. And I absolutely need to take a long way to conquer the drawbacks of mine.

So it's the wrong time,too. I cannot fall asleep quickly.How about you?


-- Post by my iPhone

what am I doing?

What am I doing? I also hope to figure out. was I happy? I don't know either.
Why could I face the reality?

I have various questions just you know.
The situation cannot change if I just do ask questions by myself.

And I have another doubt is that how can I endure the feeling of lonesome.

Many x-fs told me that I'm the person that cannot stand lonely.

Yep,you are correct. I want to alter that acting too much. But I didn't change.

Today,I met a guy and I know that feeling again. I hope to persurm perfect,but the fact is that I cannot get them now.

It's the problem,Tonight I will meet a friend,I hope that he would give me a final answer.

p.s

The most perishing thing is that you have awared your shrtcomings but you cannot make up. Moreover,you also cannot watch yourself dead.

A guy told me that I'm the person who is most close to my dream. God would give me another chance to give a shot,if I were not take the second chance,I would have nothing. Come on!


-- Post by my iPhone

Damnable frustration

I felt extreme helpless and frustrate,so I choosed to sing at mid-night lasting three hours,the singer at concert performs nothing more than three hours.

It is the only way to relieve my stress and frustration.

I hope my goals could still come true. I know it need to try harder and harder. I would like to try again!






-- Post by my iPhone

Love is unique

I saw a lots of opinions about love and sex and I also concern the relationship between them,the following one maybe is the most unique idea:

You know those carnival games,and you know how some of them are really hard to win and some of them are super easy and everyone wins.

it's just that that's the difference between love and sex.Sex is the game where everyone wins a little prize,and no one goes home a loser.And love is the game that's really hard to win.But if you do,and you get to take home that life-sized stuffed rhinoceros,it feels a whole lot better than taking home that shitty little plastic key chain.

everthing is negotiable,but not love.Love is a guessing game,and that is the beauty of it.There's no guarantees,It's like diving into a pool of water without knowing if it's shallow or deep.If it's shallow,you end up hurt and paralyzed from the neck down.But if it's deep,it's a leap of faith.It's like throwing yourself out there without any guarantees and that's what life's about.



-- Post by my iPhone

2010.04.14

I'm tired and feel a little cold. But exciting about play football at night.

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Spring is late

When I saw jasminum nudiflorum was blooemd,I feel no happy because this winter was so long and the weather in these days are cold too.I am a little worried about these flowers,maybe they do not know the weather still cold.

It's no possible that everything develops as your plan you decided.

It is life.


-- 发送自我的 iPhone

Great Barrier Reef

Last day I saw a piece of news saying that the lightly-coloured corals that make Austrlia's Great Barrier Reef will be largely dead by 2050 because of the increase of sea temperatures,according to a new report.

"Warmer sea waters make corals suffer thermal stress,and eventally making them bleach and die.

The coral reef will be replaced by ordinary seawead.

Major reduction in green house gas emissions must occur now. "

After seeing that,I remembered a sentence which I had learned.

"After Kyoto Treaty was signed by majority members in international society,the air condition in many nations has improved from good to better. "

I have never been to the Great Barrier Reef,it must be the one of most charming spot on our blue planet.

So I creat this sentence:
Because we don't exploit the sustainable way to development,lots of peculiar natural disaster are becoming guest of our global village namely El nina,red tide and acid rain. Especially global warming,according to a new report by a Australian researcher,one of the most charming landscape on earth-the lightly-coloured corals that make Australia's Great Barrier Reef will be dead by 2050 because of rising sea temperatures.


-- 发送自我的 iPhone

Life is always failure

I'm draged/pulled to the harsh reality by this exam again.

Many hopes I had before were always beated by the aborted progress. How much I want to prove myself,whereas I have proved that I am a numorous people of nothing.

I have no confidence now and I know that self-confident is so far to me.

Maybe next time would be the last chance. After that chance, I will have the courage to battle on,or I have noting which means I'm totally failed.

I cannot just wait for the next failure,That lose must be a dead frost if it would be hapenning like that.

这次的成绩又一次把我残酷地拉回了现实。

曾经的期望被自己不堪的过程击败了。我是多么想证明自己,然而证明的只是一次次的失败。

已经基本没有了信心,现在才知道自信是多么的遥不可及。

也许我这次真的只还有一次机会了。这次过后,要不就是获取继续战斗的勇气,要不就是彻彻底底地失败。

不能再等待失败了,如果真的最后失败,也要输的惨烈。



-- 发送自我的 iPhone

答案

如果你所答阅的难题根本不会有完美的答案,你是否会失落;
如果我们痛苦的结局根本不会让你参悟到真理,你是否会失望。

你会告诉我:任何复杂的问题都会有答案,任何事情的结局都会有起因。

没错,这样的态度会成为你钻研的动力。

好了,我现在开始承认我是一棵即将被收割的麦子,我再也不能在风中飘扬,也不能再放肆的歌唱。 我因为自己的成熟,所以低下了高傲的头。

我必须好好欣赏这个世界,欣赏整个世界的所有面,不论他们的贫穷或富贵,不论他们生活态度的差异。

我要让自己明白,我是爱这个世界的,即便我可能马上被收割。

我一直在为各种事情寻找着答案,可在这个过程中我虽然收获了一些道理,但也得到了更多的待解难题。

有些事情根本就没有必要知道答案。比如,如果你提前知道了你未来的妻子是谁,你会不会失望呢? 你知道了你什么时候死去,你一定不会恐惧么?

我们都会告诫自己要往乐观的方向思考,可当你真的了解到了诸多残酷的现实,你就真的能乐观吗?

所以,有些答案,你不必了解的一清二楚。至少不要让你所了解到的东西成为你承担不了的压力。

我会提醒自己:我爱这个世界,即便我是一棵要被割倒的麦子。




-- 发送自我的 iPhone