Weakness

I know that I'm a weak person, but I just realized how weak I am. We could look back for something but we can't look back for some certain things. Recently, I even think about if I can handle the life now. My motivation in the past is to have the chance which now I have, I doubt indeed because a number of things arise newly. I'm weak, so that those things could change my minds, my attitude quickly.

Every circumstance which happened to me is useless? Happiness, sadness and fortune combines to a same timeline? I even don't know why and what do I doubt, maybe those things are not so significant, but influence me a lot. I am losing self, self is self, it represents selfish, sins etc. If this is true, losing self is bad, just in the way to be a real one. Who can let me down, just my sins, they drag me to the valley. Why should I not be satisfy with what I got, instead of be sad for those I lost.

谁还在努力着

在美国有一个纪念屠杀犹太人的纪念碑，上面的话清晰地表明了这个道理：

“当初他们（纳粹）杀共产党，我没有作声，因为我不是共产党；

后来他们杀犹太人，我没有作声，因为我不是犹太人；

再接下来他们杀天主教徒，我仍然保持沉默，因为我不是天主教徒；

最后，当他们开始对付我时，已经没有人为我讲话了。

今天在图书馆里，学校的一位华人老师来到为身边，问我要不要在一张退党声明和反对中共迫害法轮功的表格上签字，正好让我验证了上面的一席话。


虽然我和她的信仰不同，但是我们都有责任去维护一个国家的信仰自由，建设中国的民主道路。我知道，很多中国人对于这样的维权行为很冷漠，但是请大家想想，今天被迫害的可能不是你，但是如果你不为你的弟兄姐妹出头，当你自己遭受迫害的时候，谁会为你出头呢？

4S 开箱

Cheesecake

American baked cheesecake

iTouch

White one

阴霾的天，暴雨来临

新的防守引擎，真的让我很蛋疼，一场比赛下来，被打得凌乱不堪，梅西各种突破，根本防
iCloud 邮箱不住，整条防线被打穿了。

I am iYuan

I'm still short of security, also sentimental all the time. I couldn't understand myself, hope is a dangerous thing if it doesn't rely on Lord. I don't wanna lose her again, as just like what she told me last night that if I went away from her, she would be crazy.

Everyone knows that fairy tale is fairy tale, we all have to experience various different kinds of obstacles, so does me. The first feedback when we undergo difficulty or fear is to go back, but this way cannot solve any problem. We all wish to protect ourselves 100%, however it is not possible.

"EVERYONE CAN MAKE HISTORY, ONLY GREAT ONE CAN WRITE IT."

As this quote says, we all are writing our own history, even you don't want to admit it. The importance is that which role in your history which you wanna play. Being a hero is everyone's dream, but not everyone put this role into our own purpose for our own life, that's the reason why we are not heroes yet. No one has easy life including Jesus, it is impossible to own a comfortable life in all stages in our lives.

I am still afraid of unknown, that's why I tell myself that if the destiny has already been sure, how come I am afraid of. Of course I don't expect to loss anyone, but no one in each life could loss nothing, just like no one in life could not meet new people.

I said that if a relationship is through Lord, this could be a real solid relationship. Now I made a relationship just like that, why should I am afraid again? It's not make sense. She said that I'm self-willed, maybe this is the actual reason. Just remind myself all the time, I'm not the old Yuan, I'm the new Yuan who leans on God, I'm iYuan now :)

We all experienced wrong relationships, They are all unforgettable. Sometimes I just cannot believe that how wonderful stories I wrote for my past life. However what I am missing is not real, time is irreversible, we cannot go back and we don't need to go back. I really love you, If the distance is 100 footsteps between us, I would like to walk 99 footsteps first, and then let you go the last footstep. I will always remind myself, we've promised to each other through Lord, I should be afraid of nothing because of this. Let's write new history from now on, the history including you and me.

FIFA 12

目前最好的足球游戏了，只是防守的难度太大了，我还没有从小组出现过，因为总是失球...

最近去游玩了，去了一些有意思的地方。

 乘坐渡轮，去Fraser Island

 在Island的淡水湖里

澳洲最东面的灯塔