I am iYuan

I'm still short of security, also sentimental all the time. I couldn't understand myself, hope is a dangerous thing if it doesn't rely on Lord. I don't wanna lose her again, as just like what she told me last night that if I went away from her, she would be crazy.

Everyone knows that fairy tale is fairy tale, we all have to experience various different kinds of obstacles, so does me. The first feedback when we undergo difficulty or fear is to go back, but this way cannot solve any problem. We all wish to protect ourselves 100%, however it is not possible.

"EVERYONE CAN MAKE HISTORY, ONLY GREAT ONE CAN WRITE IT."

As this quote says, we all are writing our own history, even you don't want to admit it. The importance is that which role in your history which you wanna play. Being a hero is everyone's dream, but not everyone put this role into our own purpose for our own life, that's the reason why we are not heroes yet. No one has easy life including Jesus, it is impossible to own a comfortable life in all stages in our lives.

I am still afraid of unknown, that's why I tell myself that if the destiny has already been sure, how come I am afraid of. Of course I don't expect to loss anyone, but no one in each life could loss nothing, just like no one in life could not meet new people.

I said that if a relationship is through Lord, this could be a real solid relationship. Now I made a relationship just like that, why should I am afraid again? It's not make sense. She said that I'm self-willed, maybe this is the actual reason. Just remind myself all the time, I'm not the old Yuan, I'm the new Yuan who leans on God, I'm iYuan now :)

We all experienced wrong relationships, They are all unforgettable. Sometimes I just cannot believe that how wonderful stories I wrote for my past life. However what I am missing is not real, time is irreversible, we cannot go back and we don't need to go back. I really love you, If the distance is 100 footsteps between us, I would like to walk 99 footsteps first, and then let you go the last footstep. I will always remind myself, we've promised to each other through Lord, I should be afraid of nothing because of this. Let's write new history from now on, the history including you and me.